I always start working out with the best intentions to be strong, feel good in my body, and improve my mood.
Once I get a routine going and weight starts coming off, it's really hard for me to maintain focused on my original goals. I start thinking about my body constantly and start fantasizing about being skinnier and people finding me more attractive. I then spiral into hating my current body, wanting to diet, and using exercise as primarily a weight loss tool. It sucks and doesn't feel nice, so then I stop working out again.
It seems as though I can either have a good relationship to my self image but poor physical health habits, or good physical health habits but a poor self image.
I love the orientation to fitness that the women in the thread from two months ago shared: Why is fitness a feminist issue for you?. But I don't know how to get from where I'm at now to a more healthy outlook that lasts longer than a couple months.
Has anyone dealt with this and have any advice for practical steps to developing a healthier relationship with my body?
(I am in therapy for general mental health support, by the way, but I haven't found therapy to be a magic bullet for removing all the diet/thinness baggage.)