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I watched a bunch of Samantha Lux videos today just out of curiosity, and they ended up making me feel quite sad. It's crazy that a person can suffer from dismorphia to such an extent that they would go through multiple, painful surgeries and procedures just to try to feel normal. And even after all that to still feel unhappy and to want to go back for more. Despite having bottom surgeries, breast surgeries, his adam's apple removed, electrolysis and god knows what else he still isn't satisfied. He's still unhappy with his hips and wants facial feminization surgeries. After that, then what will it be? How much money will he end up spending? How much physical pain will he go through? How many health complications will he endure? It just seems like a black hole of never-ending suffering.

The worst video was where he looked back at old photos from before his transition when he was in high school. It broke my heart! He was honestly a really cute guy. He even said something along those lines, ie- "I was actually pretty cute!"

I genuinely feel terrible for him and anyone else who wastes their life and destroys their body trying to be someone else 😢

I watched a bunch of Samantha Lux videos today just out of curiosity, and they ended up making me feel quite sad. It's crazy that a person can suffer from dismorphia to such an extent that they would go through multiple, painful surgeries and procedures just to try to feel normal. And even after all that to still feel unhappy and to want to go back for more. Despite having bottom surgeries, breast surgeries, his adam's apple removed, electrolysis and god knows what else he still isn't satisfied. He's still unhappy with his hips and wants facial feminization surgeries. After that, then what will it be? How much money will he end up spending? How much physical pain will he go through? How many health complications will he endure? It just seems like a black hole of never-ending suffering. The worst video was where he looked back at old photos from before his transition when he was in high school. It broke my heart! He was honestly a really cute guy. He even said something along those lines, ie- "I was actually pretty cute!" I genuinely feel terrible for him and anyone else who wastes their life and destroys their body trying to be someone else 😢

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[–] kalina 65 points (+65|-0)

these kinds of TIM shouldnt be viewed any differently than other people who get tons of plastic surgery to follow some unrealistic ideal. why is this more 'valid' than the guy who tried to become a lizard through surgery or the woman who wanted to look like a cat?

[–] EternaEspiral 8 points (+8|-0)

Or any of the surgery addicted celebrities that ended up looking like the creature from the Goonies, really..

[–] MeNsTrUaToR27 4 points (+4|-0) Edited

WORD! When we get plastic surgery we're fake whores, when alt people get plastic surgeries or lots of tattoos, they're freaks who'll never have real jobs. Yet we're supposed to clap for TiMs who not only get their plastic surgery paid for, and alter almost everything about their bodies. We're supposed to admire and respect that or we're biggots.

MALE PRIVILEGE ANYONE??? Hell it's trans privilege at this point. Men don't even get away with plastic surgery without negative judgement!

[–] thedarkhorse 48 points (+48|-0)

I think Vanessa said something like how much smaller and sadder the world is when men like him break stereotypes but then go on to believe this makes them women. The diversity of males is shrunk in this way. He was a very good looking and bright young man.

[–] no- 15 points (+15|-0)

The damage is already done, but at least I hope he won't be getting more surgery and will accept himself as he is now.

[–] XX_Power 14 points (+14|-0)

Reading your comment made me curious and i looked him up. I expected some Blaire White kinda TIM, completely overdone but admittedly passing as long as you don't see his shoulders or hear his voice.

But good Lord, this Lux guy looks completely botched! I don't say this in a mean way to be catty, he looks unhealthy and downright horrible, absolutely uncanny valley stuff. And his before pictures were so cute indeed. Now he looks like a botched blow-up doll. Very sad stuff.

[–] EternaEspiral 5 points (+5|-0)

There's definitely something weird going on with his mouth, like from the nose to the upper lip he's paralyzed and it makes him look like he's literally made from plastic.

[–] lucrecia 32 points (+32|-0)

It just seems like a black hole of never-ending suffering.

Yes. I feel bad for a lot of these guys, it's easy to say 'their problems are self-inflicted' but they're in this super fake media culture and surrounded by propaganda, being groomed by older men who want to make money off them etc, and then doubling down on their decisions because anything else is too scary to think about. I wouldn't trade places with any of them.

[–] Lokisminion13 23 points (+23|-0)

Transition (in my experience) absolutely was a black hole. You cut away more and more pieces of yourself to try to become someone else. And by the end of all of it: you’re still there.

[–] crodish 4 points (+4|-0)

I'm sorry you had such a horrible experience. I hope you're more at peace with yourself now. Keep healing. You're wonderful just the way you are.

[–] Srfthrowaway 28 points (+28|-0)

And he is so young too. That's what gets me. In a few years when his brain matures more, how hard will that be for him that this is all immortalized on the internet? If he wants to retire from YouTube and go be a hermit and try to heal, will he have any support?

[–] pennygadget 23 points (+23|-0)

If he wants to retire from YouTube and go be a hermit and try to heal, will he have any support?

I think he's in the same spot as Jazz Jennings. Most of his short life has revolved around being trans, being an activist, recruiting others into the TRA cult, etc. Its his whole identity. Its how he makes his income. And its likely that all his close friends are either trans or hardcore TRA allies.

If he wakes up one day and realizes it was a mistake and he was actually a gay boy all along...who can he talk to? Modern therapists are terrified to question trans dogma. All his friends are deep in the trans kool-aid and won't hesitate to cancel him if he expresses concerns about people like him being wrongly pushed to transition. All the flying monkeys currently circling Vanessa Vokey will come for him. He'll have nothing if he detransitions!

[–] Srfthrowaway 11 points (+11|-0) Edited

Right?!? These young transes are done for. How many of us did stupid things as kids we thought were great things? Pre-internet that all went away. Now... These now-adults are stuck with this forever and have noone to turn to if they change their minds.

Any docs or therapists who are available to actually help them detrans or even re-question are scared to advertise for good reason.

[–] immersang 12 points (+12|-0) Edited

Pre-internet that all went away.

Not to mention that most of that was reversible. We usually didn't get life-changing surgery based on a teenage / young adult identity crisis. We went Goth or something, and black hair dye grows out after a while. The worst situation that I can remember from that time were two girls from my school who were anorexic and actually had to be hospitalized over it. That's bad enough, but thankfully they recovered and lead normal lives today. I can't think of anything truly irreversible that anyone of us did. You can even get rid of stupid tattoos these days.

[–] BlackMoonLilith 6 points (+6|-0) Edited

Oh man, this reminds me of a tattoo artist I followed on Instagram. She's in her early 20s... SUPER talented, an amazing artist, etc. But every once in a while she'd post a video about how depressed she was, about how she was going to therapy, etc. And then she started getting more and more tattoos to cover herself up (which is fine - she's a tattoo artist). But suddenly she's non-binary and wanting to get her breasts removed. She would make posts about how she doesn't feel male or female. She'd post daily videos of herself smoking pot and staring at herself in the mirror in her underwear. I had to stop following her because it was getting too depressing. But every once in a while I'll check her feed - and just last week she started an Only Fans account.

If she was depressed before the surgery and sex work (and tattoos on her face/neck), I can just imagine what it'll be like in a few years... my heart breaks for her.

[–] crodish 2 points (+2|-0)

Right?!? These young transes are done for.

I understand the sentiment here, but I don't think anyone should be condemned. Will they need to live with their mistakes? Yeah, and so does everyone else who've ever made mistakes in life - it's part of being human and learning and falling and getting up again. It will suck worse than more trivial fuck ups like tripping in front of your crush, etc. And unfortunately some of these people might not be able to cope and end up taking themselves out to escape the pain. But if they have the will to live on and make life better for themselves, and learn from their mistakes, no matter how small, I think they can.

[–] Jellyfishes 25 points (+25|-0)

he still isn't satisfied.

Just like people with body dysmorphia.

[–] Omina_Sentenziosa 11 points (+11|-0)

He will never be satisfied, because he knows, deep down, that his goal is impossible.

[–] no- 22 points (+22|-0)

The only procedure I've had done is one liposuction, and not only did it not make me happier, I also couldn't tell the difference, I felt as "fat" as before. I was constantly fasting and throwing up food, and nothing ever made me feel better about myself. I'd also spent pretty much all my money on treatments for cellulite, none of which worked. That's when I realized I'd never be happy with my body because the way I see myself is distorted, and the best I can hope for is body neutrality. Now I'm taking anti depressants and feel a lot better mentally. I don't think sex dysphoria is quite the same as body dysmorphia, but it's similar in the sense that there's nothing wrong with your body and trying to feed the monster that tells you your body should be something it isn't is a never ending exercise in futility, not to mention a huge waste of money and time.

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[–] VeggieAnnie 21 points (+21|-0)

Yeah, it's really sad that people aren't getting their real problems worked on, and instead fell down (or got pushed down) the trans slope.

[–] itsnotaboutewe 20 points (+20|-0)

I have a feeling he knows he will never be happy with the way he looks and maybe even regrets starting down this path. When people feel cornered by a truth they have been studiously avoiding they tend to lash out at anyone who won't play into their false reality.

[–] MakeThatDough 11 points (+11|-0)

sunk costs, literally $$$. except idk if our taxes paid it, i know that's true for TIMs in jail and in UK

[–] BoxingBelle 20 points (+20|-0)

I guess it's like getting tattoos...but instead of a tattoo you get your penis cut off

[–] catbitch 15 points (+15|-0)

Lol! At least with tats you can get laser or a cover-up. There ain’t no glueing the dick back on though.

[–] shveya 17 points (+17|-0)

It makes me sad too. I knew so many artistic and flamboyant gay men in the 90’s and early 2000’s. To think that guys like him would have been comfortable and happy in their own skin if they had been born a decade earlier is just tragic.

[–] Srfthrowaway 7 points (+7|-0)

I had one awhile ago as a patient and he was just such a normal person, it was his normal personality and I was thinking afterwards that 15 years ago I had lots of those guys as patients.

[–] NewMa 15 points (+16|-1)

Yeah, I feel for him. I really do. He traded in the cakelike existence of a white [appearing] dude for the life of a "woman" (he passes in his videos, the voice is super fake but I'd just think he was a woman being fake and untrustworthy not a man, tbh), and he's also a YouTuber. He literally signed up for millions of strangers to critique his body and mannerisms, just like we're doing right now. It's clearly given him a complex. I feel really, really badly for him.

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