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I am just listening to a podcast with Helen Joyce (who I love) and she’s just talking about the medical and surgical pathways children are put on when they are perceived to be gender non-conforming. The example she’s giving is Suzie Green of Mermaids who transited som aged 4.

This will ALWAYS chill me right to my core.

I remember pleading with my parents to let me a boy, I felt strongly that I was one. I played with boys toys and I liked boys clothes. I hated the “girly” toys my sisters played with and when they played dress up, I would dress as a boy while they were Disney princesses. My parents were extremely chill and told me I could play with whatever toys I wanted and wear whatever and it didn’t mean anything bad about me. I remember having sad conversations with my mum where I was embarrassed that no other girls liked the things I liked.

Turns out that was a phase I grew out of as I’m now a grown adult and very happy I’m a woman and very comfortable in my body.

Childhood memories are hazy but still there yet I cannot imagine the course of my life being altered by decisions I made and things I said back then. I also believed Hogwarts might be real and I low-key waited for a letter to arrive for me by owl inviting me to go to school there.

It chills me to my bones though to think what could have happened to me if I was born a few decades later and growing up now.

I am just listening to a podcast with Helen Joyce (who I love) and she’s just talking about the medical and surgical pathways children are put on when they are perceived to be gender non-conforming. The example she’s giving is Suzie Green of Mermaids who transited som aged 4. This will ALWAYS chill me right to my core. I remember pleading with my parents to let me a boy, I felt strongly that I was one. I played with boys toys and I liked boys clothes. I hated the “girly” toys my sisters played with and when they played dress up, I would dress as a boy while they were Disney princesses. My parents were extremely chill and told me I could play with whatever toys I wanted and wear whatever and it didn’t mean anything bad about me. I remember having sad conversations with my mum where I was embarrassed that no other girls liked the things I liked. Turns out that was a phase I grew out of as I’m now a grown adult and very happy I’m a woman and very comfortable in my body. Childhood memories are hazy but still there yet I cannot imagine the course of my life being altered by decisions I made and things I said back then. I also believed Hogwarts might be real and I low-key waited for a letter to arrive for me by owl inviting me to go to school there. It chills me to my bones though to think what could have happened to me if I was born a few decades later and growing up now.

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[–] SecondSkin 11 points Edited

Growing up piss poor I’d say we all would have been seen as gnc also. Anyone’s hand me downs and home knitted jumpers, bad bowl cuts from the neighbour that grew out too long on the boys as well as us girls, played with any toys we could get our hands on and kicked out the house in the morning and played in the woods climbing trees or making forts or went fishing or took ourselves off to the local farm to help with the lambing, until allowed back at dinner time. Always dirty, always scuffed knees, bruises, tangled mop of hair. Once we were older we’d all steal cigarettes and bottles of anything, listen to punk and grunge, did our own home piercings and hair die/under cuts, boys wore eyeliner and black nail varnish like us girls, and we all read all kinds of literature just because the library was warm and free and would turn a blind eye to teenagers obviously hiding from going home to chaos.

The idea anyone had any choice about being gnc or not still seems madness to me. We were just desperately trying to survive, identifying out of our misery the usual way teens do: art and music. But we still knew there was no escaping reality.

Were you the Waltons???

But hey seriously, that was a show set in the 30s and 40s in which girl and boy children ran about the place in the same overalls.