obvious tw for talk about eating disorders and experiences.
I'm sure it's been brought up before but I can't help but notice the contrast between reactions to trans bodily dysphoria and bodily dysmorphia for people with eating disorders.
As a recovering anorexic I feel like I know at least a little of what it is like to think you are 'trapped' in your body, that your body does not suit you, that you do not want to live in it. I wanted to get rid of my breasts and suck out every bit of fat from my body and I derived genuine satisfaction and 'euphoria' from stepping on the scale and seeing that the number dropped, or comparing myself to old photos and looking sicker and skinnier.
Obviously being anorexic and being trans are not the same thing - THEORETICALLY (I am not saying this is in practice the case), being trans should not be physically unhealthy and deprive your body of nutrients and make you susceptible to physical disorders. But I can't help but notice the difference in rhetoric. If I had told people that I wanted a masectomy because I hated having my breasts so much, I have no doubt I would have been told that I needed to see a therapist and come to accept and live with my body instead of changing something that is normal and healthy.
But I feel like now, I could say that and a non-negligible proportion of people would come forward to tell me that I am trans, that maybe my eating disorder is really caused by being a man 'inside' (whatever that means), instead of being a reaction to the experiences I have had as a biological woman (i.e. somebody of the female sex).
Maybe I am wrong, but I keep on feeling like the first step to somebody being 'out' as trans isn't to just blindly accept their assertion, but question what might make them feel such discomfort with their body. Maybe it is true that physical transition is the solution for some, but it seems like such a radical jump to say that it is 'THE' solution to dysphoria in general.