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I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this.

I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different.

Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this. I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different. Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

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Not a late bloomer, but grew up....well and still live in a conservative area. So literally there were no out gay kids in high-school. And you wouldn't dare hit on any that you thought because if they weren't you were then marked lol. That being said I think the late bloomers might have had it better because it really sucked going through all those lovely teenage hormones and having a bunch of crushes on girls that you couldn't tell anyone about, watch them date loser guys knowing you will never be what they want. So yea would have been nice to have that usual teenage dating experience and going to dances and such but the world doesn't work that way...well didn't...idk how the climate is now with gay kids in high-school.

I am I guess what you'd call a mid-bloomer (realized I was 100% gay at about 25) and while I have a lot of feelings about my adolescence, I do actually feel somewhat relieved I did not get the classic frustrating-to-terrifying experience of being fully aware that you're a lesbian as a child/teen and facing shit for it. Luckily I also managed to avoid boys/men until I figured it all out (so best of both sad worlds? lol) but I am sometimes bitterly glad I was so weird/messed up I managed to drift through that period in my own little bubble.