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I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this.

I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different.

Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this. I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different. Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

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I use to be very sad about it, but I have to move on for my mental health. There will be other great memories to make.