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I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this.

I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different.

Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

I’m watching my younger brothers go to homecoming with their dates right now. They seem to be having a great time and I’m really happy for them! I still view them as babies though so it does feel a bit weird. I also can’t help but feel a sliver of jealousy that they are able to do this. I couldn’t even accept that I liked girls until graduating high school, and even then I waited another couple years to come out to my conservative family. They had some trouble accepting it. Just being able to date so young without any obstacles or consequences must be nice… I did go to homecoming and prom with my group of friends, but I still feel like it’s different. Maybe I’m making hs dating out to be a bigger deal than it is, I always tend to romanticize things. It just feels like I’m missing an important experience that normal people had as teenagers.

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I wasn't allowed to go to high school at all so I am definitely there with you on not having that... I always had zero interest in boys but never got to spend time with girls I liked outside of church or youth group. Every once in a while I would manage to make friends with a girl and then we'd have to move away so I knew to try not to get too attached. I think for better or worse a lot of lesbians have a similar experience of not experiencing the straight kid milestones because we can't come out, or there are no other lesbians or bi girls around with mutual interest, and sometimes because we are too repressed with internalized homophobia tbh. I think it's no good comparing our timelines to others, we'll have our own milestones when we have them. I didn't start dating women until I moved to a "blue" city to go to college and didn't have my homophobic family around.