I have been a widow for over 20 years. I lost my husband 10 days before I turned 31 and then miscarried 2 weeks later.

Since then I have looked at men, But I find I can't trust them. I no longer believe their motives are anything other than self satisfaction and that they will lie, cheat, steal, gaslight, or do whatever they can to make you think that they are doing you a favor with their attention. Do I miss physical intimacy? At times.

I have been curious about women for a long time and have started looking at my attraction to them.

But, I can't see myself retiring with a man in my life. I value me more than any man's fee fees