It's sad to me. I really see myself here, trying to be so "womanly", wanting to be someone my boyfriend can "show off", making sure I wore something sexy around the house (because he said I was unattractive in my comfy clothes), but dressed more modest, nothing provocative when out (he didn't know why I'd "want other men looking at me").

... My ex was a total douche bag and I was just too young with no self-esteem to realize it. It didn't mean I was a man. It didn't even mean my experience would necessarily have been different with a" bi-guy". I just should have loved myself more, and told him to fuck off. These things just aren't ok at all, it doesn't mean you're a "man" because you don't want to do them.