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Ya'll, this month I feel like I've been possessed and need an exorcism.

Usually, my PMS is very mild. I get very intense cramps due to my IUD, but I've learned how to manage pain. Any mood issues I have is really due to being in so much pain.

For some reason, this month I don't have the awful cramps but I do have hot flashes and THE SHORTEST TEMPER IN THE WORLD. Like for the last 3 days I've been stewing in sweat and ready to break something. I almost cussed out my manager for being a slow fucking talking, rambling, fill the air with your nasty hot ass breath old man. I especially get so fucking angry by people who can just keep talking and talking but saying nothing of substance, SHUT. UP.

It's like I'm kinda wired up, and then I sweat, and that just makes me ANGRY. And then I get chills and get even more uncomfortable and annoyed smh.

I'm so over it y'all. I'm sick of being angry. (now I'm tearing up smdh). So annoying how anger is only acceptable to be released if you have a "good reason". What about because this is how my body is wired? There's always someone around, wish they would go away and leave me alone, I just wanna yell and be belligerent in peace (heh).

Actually, what is the best way to communicate something like this? I've tried to just ask for space but then people wanna know what's wrong, and you say PMS, but then they don't really take it seriously. Like, LEAVE ME ALONE this shit is REAL and I WILL hurt your feelings!! NOBODY WANTS THAT SO GO AWAY. What's also hard is the ignorance. This anger is purely hormonal, but people still want to attach some fault or incident to it. NOTHING IS "WRONG" IT'S JUST HOW BIOLOGY WORKS.

Ya'll, this month I feel like I've been possessed and need an exorcism. Usually, my PMS is very mild. I get very intense cramps due to my IUD, but I've learned how to manage pain. Any mood issues I have is really due to being in so much pain. For some reason, this month I don't have the awful cramps but I do have **hot flashes** and THE SHORTEST TEMPER IN THE WORLD. Like for the last 3 days I've been stewing in sweat and ready to break something. I almost cussed out my manager for being a slow fucking talking, rambling, fill the air with your nasty hot ass breath old man. I especially get so fucking angry by people who can just keep talking and talking but saying nothing of substance, *SHUT. UP.* It's like I'm kinda wired up, and then I sweat, and that just makes me ANGRY. And then I get chills and get even more uncomfortable and annoyed smh. I'm so over it y'all. I'm sick of being angry. (now I'm tearing up smdh). So annoying how anger is only acceptable to be released if you have a "good reason". What about because this is how my body is wired? There's always someone around, wish they would go away and leave me alone, I just wanna yell and be belligerent in peace (heh). Actually, what is the best way to communicate something like this? I've tried to just ask for space but then people wanna know what's wrong, and you say PMS, but then they don't really take it seriously. Like, **LEAVE ME ALONE** this shit is REAL and I WILL hurt your feelings!! NOBODY WANTS THAT SO *GO AWAY*. What's also hard is the ignorance. This anger is purely hormonal, but people still want to attach some fault or incident to it. NOTHING IS "WRONG" IT'S JUST HOW BIOLOGY WORKS.

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Y'know, it's funny. When I drink a lot and eat like shit I get horrible cramps and bloating, and this month when I'm 40 days sober and eat pretty clean it's no cramps or bloat but hot flash and hellfeels. It's wild how much lifestyle can change things.

I want to be healthy but why does it come with unrepentant Anger?

I want to be healthy but why does it come with unrepentant Anger?

To be really honest, I feel like unrepentant anger is a healthy reaction to the society we live in. I try not to be too dark on here, but I feel like for me personally the more I take care of myself the more emotionally raw I get. I'm hoping there's some sort of plateau coming.