I go through these weird phases where I fixate on things. A couple times a year I’ll be completely fixated on my little wildlife cemetery garden in my backyard. For a few months I’ll be completely obsessed with it and I’ll have a hard time focusing on anything else. I’ll spend most of my waking time, including when I’m at work, thinking about it and dreaming about what plants I want to add. My fantasy is that I’ll some day make it as beautiful as Mount Auburn Cemetery, which I’m also obsessed with due to its beauty and impeccable landscaping.

The issue is that I’m never satisfied with what I plant. As soon as I get a new plant I’m never happy and am immediately trying to figure out what needs to be done to make everything perfect. So I’ll buy another plant, place it in a location that I’m sure will be the most aesthetically pleasing, and right away I’m fantasizing about getting something else. I just want more more more better better better. There’s very rarely a honeymoon phase for me of enjoying a new plant - my eyes are immediately wandering.

I’m currently obsessed with lavender, roses, and I’m literally on my way right now to find more mint varieties.

Is this a problem or is it actually relatively normal?