The title of this post is a phrase I have seen echoed on social media over and over again by TIFs. I will never understand how they fail to realize that they're literally saying the quiet part out loud! They're genuinely proud of their past as a fetishizer, and they wear it as a badge of honor! They proclaim from the rooftops the fact that they have a porn addiction and a weird obsession with gay men, and yet are blissfully unaware of the reputation it is earning them among the more sane circles of people.
If they were genuinely the "gay men" that they claim to be, they would be able to recognize the fetishy seme/uke dynamics present in the anime porn they gobble up and then, I don't know, stop fucking engaging with it?
Anyone who can hear a TIF proudly proclaim such a sordid past that any normal person would carry to their grave without immediately peaking is clearly suffering from the worst case of cognitive dissonance I've ever seen. I'll never understand it.
Every time the man dates a woman he has to tell her how the previous woman was unhinged, unwell, unmade by his constant queries, demands, and assessments, and the new woman must nod along or she will not be the new woman any longer.
I think that's the first piece of poetry I've read to the end in a long time. Work of genius.
This was really beautiful, thank you for sharing. I get the impression she has specific men in mind, despite this being a largely universal experience, I would love to know what(who) informed this piece. I hope she is healing. This is not relegated to academia or publishing either, I saw her experiences filtered in corporate America 5 years ago, before the metoo movement.
Pretty sure Junot Diaz is one writer being specifically referenced.
Yeah, I know. It’s everywhere.
Thank you so much for sharing this piece!
It’s great, isn’t it? Makes me glad I never went into the book business after all.
Damn...
This is incredible. It gave me the shivers. Now I'm off to get Rebecca Hazelton's books of poetry to read. Thank you for posting this.
Fantastic piece.
I've been in this situation. I think most women have. That disgusting feeling of knowing a man is taking advantage of the situation and your inability to tell him to stop, because then everyone will look at you and wonder what's wrong with you, he's just being friendly, he doesn't mean anything by it, stop make such a big deal out of everything. And then feeling disgusted with yourself later because you didn't say anything and he got away with it and you know HE knows he got away with it.
Yes, that part resonated particularly strongly with me, too.