I'm feeling very down since this month started because I know I'm going to be bombarded non stop with trans related stuff and honestly I don't know how much more I can take. It's disheartening to see how they've completely taken over us, they've taken our spaces, our words, they've taken over institutions and government instances that are supposed to be for women and for homosexuals.
The trans flag is everywhere EVERYWHERE, some places aren't even using the rainbow flag anymore just the trans one, and if you don't comply with their ideology you're automatically excluded from everything, silenced, erased.
Years ago this month was fun for me. It meant hanging out with my lesbian and gay friends, it meant partying, it made me happy... Now it fills me with dread. Almost all of my ex-friends are now trans, non binary or handmidens, and I know I'm not welcome in any pride celebration because I am now a "terf". I still follow some on them on instagram and they seem happy. I know they're not burdened with this. I know what it feels like to belong, because I used to belong, but I don't anymore. I don't belong to the lgbtttqia++++ anymore.
But I AM a lesbian!
Lesbians started it!
I'm still a lesbian!
We still need community, support, love, visibility.. And it's all gone.
I feel like the whole world hates us. I feel very sad, I'm tearing down writing this. Everytime I see that damned flag I am reminded of my cancellation, of losing all my friends, of losing my sister to this idiology, of losing women I've loved. I am reminded of how much I'm hated, of how much I'm isolated now because of it.
I am very sad. This month for me is no longer for pride, but for mourning.
Thanks for reading :(