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Story TimeI miss my ex very much
This is the only safe space that won’t be infiltrated by TW, and I have been thinking about her a lot lately.
Things seemed to be going well with her. She was always so gentle with me. I’d had one girlfriend before her, but she cheated on me (with a guy) and it was hard for me to trust after that. She knew I didn’t have a lot of experience with relationships in general but didn’t care.
I had been debating on getting her something to mark our time together. I have a bad habit of thinking out loud; I’d mentioned a piece of jewelry that holds a lot of personal significance to me. I immediately changed my mind, knowing that it would be too much, but I don’t know that she heard that.
I settled on a much smaller, less expensive gift — a keychain with her dog’s name on it. It might sound silly, but when she told me how much her dog meant to her, I knew it was the perfect gift that would mean a lot, but at the same time, not enough to accelerate things quickly.
I was happy with her. I was comfortable with her. I look at pictures of us together and there is absolutely no hiding the smile I had with her. And she looked just as happy.
But then…out of nowhere…something changed. In the span of just a couple of days. She was acting distant. She didn’t want to talk to me. I asked her if she was having second thoughts about me and she avoided the question.
I knew that when she asked me to meet her on that Saturday afternoon, things weren’t going to end well for me. I’m tearing up thinking about it, and I hate to admit how good she looked in her college sweater. She told me she thought we should go back to being friends.
Like a doofus, I agreed to that, because I wanted some form of her in my life.
She hasn’t spoken to me since. She does watch my social media posts, almost on schedule. (That part is a bit strange to me but I try not to think about it much — it could mean literally nothing.)
She’s either married or getting married soon. I’m not 100% sure because I don’t follow up with her because it hurts too much, even after all this time.
I was falling in love with her and I never got the chance to tell her.
Nobody has given me the same feeling of warmth or comfort since. I want to talk to her so badly that it hurts, but I don’t want to disrespect her boundaries or her future/ wife.
I’m sorry. This post got away from me.
Gorgeous! Also, what a beautiful citrus tree.
Thanks!!! I've been gently squeezing my limes every day to check them because I'm so excited I can't wait for them to ripen. :)
Fantastic! I'm so jealous. I wish citrus trees would grow here. At least I have some delicious berries. :)
This was a large hawk. Beautiful though. Had to close up the doggie door so Irish didn't get snatched up.
ETA: Best guess is red tail. If anyone knows any better, let me know.
Definitely a red tail! I used to do raptor surveys looking for these fellas in the woods. Filmmakers use their cries instead of eagles' own in movies. If you're anywhere near a nest a worried mama will circle above you and make these cries over and over again.
Cool! He/she was soooo big! You don't realize how large until they're that close. The fence is about 10ft. from the kitchen window where I took the picture. The hawk sat there for a while and let me get lots of video and snaps :)
When I moved the blinds, she definitely saw me, though. That head turned right to the side and the eye found me immediately. lol
What did the front of the hawk look like? Light breast, dark band across the belly area = red tail.
The front was white with brownish V shapes on it???
Sounds like a red-tail! Looks young, maybe in its first year. Very cool, thanks for sharing
I used to have a cotton tail doe rabbit in my back yard for about three years who would safely have her kits there. The amount of beautiful hawks I would chase off. I'd yell and wave my arms about. After about two minutes they would fly off. I must have looked like a mad woman.
Beautiful! They sit on our fence occasionally too. I like your string lights, btw. 😊
Thanks!
The lights are my neighbors. The palm tree I used to hang mine on died during the great Texas freeze of 2021. 😭😭😭
The lights are my neighbors
Duh. I should have figured that one out as you're taking the photo from the opposite side of the fence. 🤦♀️ Still both beautiful yards.
I used to feed some sparrows in my front bushes when it was winter, and one day I heard them cry out in alarm and ran out to them, and there was a hawk that looked very similar to this one perching right on my neighbor's railing like this.
He was obviously hoping to grab one of the sparrows as a snack, so I did everything I could to scare him away, but that fucker didn't even flinch for several minutes no matter what I did, but eventually he gave up and flew off.
In other raptor news, I saw an amazing sight about a month ago, although sadly I wasn't able to get a picture because it was such a shock; I saw two bald eagles, one adult and one juvenile, while riding by them in a cab.
I've seen a couple of bald eagles before, but always from far away, up high, and across a lot of water, whereas these ones were on the ground just hanging out on the grass, and this was right in the middle of a very urban area, no less!
So cool 🤩
I’m always struck by how HUGE these birds are