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So, as a feminist, I think I've freed myself of beauty standards pretty efficiently. I don't wear make-up, I dress in practical, neutral clothing (think jeans and a sweater with sneakers), I put my hair in a simple ponytail and just don't give much attention to my appearance in general. I'm flat chested and curve-less by nature, and this doesn't bother me, I truly wouldn't change anything about myself except that I'd like to get a bit stronger but that's another discussion.
I'd like to say I applaud this in other women, that I notice other lesbians rejecting the constant worship of appearance and find it admirable and attractive.
But..... I don't. In truth, I don't think I really notice women who look like me at all. I notice the "bimbos" mostly (and I think they want to be noticed, to be fair). I genuinely like women with glossed lips and low cut shirts and heaps of jewelry, I even think the high heels are sexy, even though I know what they do to your ankles. I notice myself treating these women better, wanting to spend more time around them than other women.
I feel like I'm a fraud feminist for being drawn in by women who look this way, or like I'm objectifying them. Should I try to be attracted to different women? How do I go about that?