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Serious DiscussionMental health struggles: let's talk about it
Posted April 16, 2024 by Destresse in Lesbians

Alright, this is kinda hard for me to write. I don't like talking about difficult subjects like this because I feel like I'm imposing and bringing down everyone's morale, but I want to find other lesbians who struggle with this because so much C/PTSD stuff is focused on the bi/hetero perspective.

So. Err. Yeah. Hello, how is everyone? Enjoying your day? Currently in the middle of life-changing crisis? Relationship issues? Wondering if you're too damaged to ever be able to be good for someone? Let's talk about this for once. I'll go first:

I wonder if I'm incapable of love. Nothing I feel or do seems to correspond to what others describe, and I feel so lost and so bad at seeing things clearly, like there's a constant deforming lens in front of my eyes and I have to swipe it away every 2 seconds because it just keeps coming back. I am so utterly sick of being a fearful and defensive mess of a human who refuses to love and be loved in return because I was gaslit into equating love with hate and abuse.

So yeah. My girlfriend told me she loved me and I have been going insane ever since. I try really hard to focus on positive thoughts but damn it, sometimes I just need to scream out the overwhelming negative thoughts that plague me.

Okay okay, I'm done. Please feel free to let out all of your worries and negative thoughts here, I really need to feel less alone in this 🥲

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