Mildly psycho storytime here, but hopefully I'm among friends.
I follow popular leftists on twitter (Hasan etc) and trans discourse comes up regularly, usually without context. I often click on profiles to laugh and because I think I hate myself. Usually its boring cringe, but I found this one "tomboy trans lesbian." I like the label tomboy for myself and have personally never seen a larper choose that one (only seen them try/fail butch). Anyway this larper was fit and I guess attractive if you're into a smaller muscle man with slightly more fat in the hips/ass/face and A/2 cup tits. I kept scrolling and there's tons of narc pics/tweets about being a hot tomboy dyke. I've seen it all before but it hits different when this dudes on your label.
This really pissed me off, and on some irrational lizard brain level still wildly pisses me off. I've been a lifelong gnc big homo and had some weird/harder experiences because of it, you are a creepy enabled man larping as me bc 4 boobahs oops pp got too hard. Stay tf off these terms/out of our sexuality, same old shit, rant over. Situations not getting any better anytime soon, so I'm trying to channel this into something positive/productive.
I've been needing to get fit again because its supposed to improve your mental health and relationship status, but I'm generally lazy. LOL not anymore. I've always been too scared to try lifting weights. LOL not anymore. Its been 4 weeks now of mindful eating/protein and regular gym hitting/lifting. I'm skinnyfat now, but determined to undeniably, by all accounts, absolutely out-chad this twitter guy and all the nasty larpers by the summer. I'm one of those tall, broad shouldered, husky voiced freaks who puts on muscle more easily, so I'm confident I can. I also want a girl to lick my future washboard abs on her way down. Wish me luck to invalidate a trans girl!