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Need Advice or SupportI'm so tired
It's really hitting me lately.
The constant streams of lies and bullshit. Having to self-censor, having to repeat things I don't believe in like I'm an apostate in the 15th century. The knowledge I'll fuck up one day and lose my job, no matter how good I am at my job.
I'm so tired. I just want to not hear about this. Just for a brief period. I take breaks from Ovarit when I need to, and I needed to the last day or two, but it's inescapable. The genderspecial union at work won't fucking stop. I just want to talk about work. I just want to do my job in peace. I don't want to join the "diversity club". I don't want to. I'm good at my job, I'm not a fucking pity hire. I don't want to sign up like I'm some poor oppressed minority. I just want one place where I can be valued for my skills and for what I bring to the table.
But no. That's not good enough. I have to join their fucking diversity club. I have to join because I'm female and that must mean I'm a fucking pity hire. I have to tell them whether I'm LGBTQIAPPDJEBWISN+ because that will let them know where to place me on the fucking totem pole. I don't want to tell them I'm a lesbian and I don't want to lie and say I'm straight either. It's fucked up. Why is my sexuality up for discussion? Why do I have to confess such a private thing in the fucking workplace?
I'm so fucking tired. I just want it to end.