I enjoy a lot of different kinds of games from all sorts of studios, targeted towards all sorts of demographics. Sometimes I want to play a gigantic, sprawling RPG like Baldur's Gate 3. Sometimes I want to survive in the hostile Amazon with Green Hell. Sometimes I want to immerse myself in a melancholy world and absurd character with Disco Elysium. I like sneaking around in the OG Thief games and in their spiritual successor, the Dishonored series. I've been known to blow some people up in an FPS or two, but it's not my favorite kind of game. Heck, I still even love The Sims.
You get it. I enjoy a lot of games, even those made by guys and tailored towards other guys (aka most games), as long as they're tasteful enough about it.
But I am aware that most games don't speak to what I might reservedly or even hesitantly call my "feminine" side, so to speak, and those which do tend to kind of infantilize it. Not that I don't also love playing cozy games with cartoonish elements that awaken my inner child, but until I found this game, I didn't know how hungry I was for a gentle but deeply rich and intellectual game, with a mature aesthetic.
Book of Hours is not a game for everyone. Many will find its mechanics too obscure. It does very little hand-holding. And many of those who enjoy it will nonetheless give up on it simply because precious few people have time to immerse themselves in a game like this. 100% understandable. But for the few who can spare the space for it, it is totally unique.
The game is produced by Weather Factory, and was written by Lottie Bevan (a woman) and Alexis Kennedy (a man). It is a relaxed standalone companion to a much more frenetic game known as Cultist Simulator, and my understanding is that they exist in the same universe.
The premise of Book of Hours is that you are the Librarian of a sprawling estate in the English countryside--an estate known as Hush House. You start out understanding very little of what is going on. It is quite possible that you will end understanding very little of what is going on, but along the way you will be receiving tidbits of lore that you can piece together into a strange but consistent picture if you pay close attention.
Other than the Library itself and its contents, the game is chiefly card-based. There are Memory cards, which can represent concepts like the current weather, ephemeral or lasting insights, and lessons you've gained from, among other things, reading the many books in Hush House.
Then you have your Elements of the Soul cards. In this lore, the human soul has nine parts: Health, Chor, Ereb, Mettle, Phost, Wist, Fet, and Trist.
Next are your skill cards. Naming a few just to give a taste: Insects & Nectars, Disciplines of the Hammer, Sky Stories, Serpents & Venoms, Ragged Crossroads, Sacra Limiae, Watchman's Paradoxes. There are dozens of these.
The last panel of cards represents a sort of card inventory. They include currency (both the standard English tender of the early 20th century, when the game takes place, and the occult coinage known as spintriae), assistance that you can hire or have hired for the day, Incident cards that represent esoteric events going on in the world, and whatever unusual visitors have arrived either by invitation or to consult the Library about an Incident, among other miscellania.
Pretty much everything in the game has one or more Aspects. These Aspects are: Nectar, Heart, Grail, Edge, Sky, Lantern, Forge, Moth, Rose, Knock, Moon, Winter, and Scale.
Every single room of the colossal estate must be deliberately unlocked room by room with the assistance of villagers and other hirelings, raising their Aspects to the point that they are capable of cleaning up rubble or removing curses or whatever is keeping you from the room.
Books (and phonograph/film recordings, which behave mostly similarly) have a Mystery level corresponding to one of the Aspects, and the goal is to gather enough of those Aspects using an Element of the Soul, a Skill, a Memory, and if applicable, a Language (also considered a kind of Skill). As your skills increase via lessons from the books you read, and your Elements of the Soul become more powerful as you combine them, it will become feasible to read more difficult and powerful books. Each book you read gives you snippets of the text and/or musings on the content. Lore in this game is its own reward, and it is incredibly complex and interwoven.
Crafting is also a huge thing. Using specific Skills, Aspects, and components on certain crafting stations (like a giant telescope, a strange altar, or a workbench, to name a few), you can produce both items and Memories, which can be used for their Aspects or sometimes for more specific purposes in more crafting.
The pause button is vital, but the seasons pass. Gardening allows for harvesting of different flowers, fruits, and vegetables depending on the season. Most Memories are lost with each new dawn, with a couple of ways to potentially preserve one through the night, and with others that are powerful enough to persist.
But even those are lost after the mystical, single-day season of Numa passes, when the plants in the garden transform into strange and rare blossoms and fruits. Numa comes once every nine seasons, but one is never sure when. When it arrives, you must rush to do everything you can.
Numa is the only true time constraint in the game, discouraging you from hoarding all your persistent memories and lessons indefinitely. After all, there are better and more interesting things to do in Numa than frantically attempt to use up everything you've been holding onto, so it's best not to let things lie for too long, lest the labyrinth season take you by surprise.
The ostensible goal of the game is to write a new History in your Journal with an Ink of Power. I won't get into what that means too much; as I mentioned before, the lore is the main reward in this game, and the way it's dispensed in these little tidbits is masterful.
And what lore it is. The world-building is--and I mean this sincerely--the best I have ever seen. This is not just a game written by a writer. This is a game written by an author. It has a beautifully distinctive literary tone throughout. There are plenty of clever and humorous bits, while many other passages still give me chills even now. An incredible amount of research must have been done into occultism, as well as the time period and region. Both the similarities to our world (our History?) and the differences are equally compelling. I cannot be effusive enough about the writing.
Meanwhile, you can organize the Library however you wish. You can take the busts of the previous Librarians found throughout the House, learn who they are from various lore-scraps, and place them in their labeled niches, or you can ignore everything and leave it as disorganized as I am in real life.
There are things I haven't mentioned, some of which because this already is becoming a novella, and others because I have barely discovered them myself. Resolving Incidents, finding Treasures of the House...I've finished this game (no small feat in and of itself) a few times already, and I'm still experimenting and learning.
There is a DLC, House of Light. Much of this DLC is devoted to inviting guests over and having "Salons" aka a meal and a discussion. You can cook different courses for them via the oven. Certain courses are required for salons at different tables and times of day (elevenses, afternoon tea, dinner). I love it. Highly recommended. It's basically just integrated into the game.
Anyway, I felt that you could tell that a woman's voice was extremely strong in this game, without it being sanitized or idealized or dumbed down or "cute." Of course all women are different, and what it means to be "feminine" is broad and contentious, I felt that it was a game that many mature female gamers would appreciate.
Thanks for reading!
I expect the next stage of the fantasy would have been the doctor stripping off so they could compare parts, then engage in a pillow fight in their underwear... but even he knew that was jumping the shark.
My favorite was "I shyly took of my jeans"
That's....that's the most basic give away that none of this happened.
Ew, it's like they're narrating one of those gross, fetishy feminization stories they sell on Amazon. It's clear that this guy's brain has been rotted by porn.
Man, you just know whatever is left of his inverted, mangled penis was swelling while writing these tweets.
His, "innie-rection" ππ«
Ewwwww why'd you make me think about that π€’π€’π€’π€’π€’
Brilliant catch! The word 'shyly' is not in the TIM Approved Vocabulary Listβ’.
And yet you can tell by his profile pic that he's a guy. Without even hearing him, I know his voice is going to have that nasal, fake falsetto pitch to it.
THIS IS SOOOO FUCKING FUNNY LMAOOOOOOO πππππππππππππππππ Dude posted a porn script online and now he's demanding headpats for his lil catgirl pussy that's SO much better than cis frontholes, and his super sexy giant milkers with which he breasts so boobily down the stairs that the gynecologist will never ever be able to stop thinking about him πππ
The Dr was like Wow your breasts boob so boobily! Then she pulls out her boobys
Oh yeah!!! The doc pulls out her own boobies, they're in a lacy red bra. She says do my boobies look ok to you??? I know I'm getting old and my oestrogen is rapidly dwindling, unlike yours. The TIM says omg no queen your boobies are totally adequate!! Then they rub their breasty tit boobie boobs together for comparison.
Yea the a TERF walks in (She has an I love JK Rowling Pin on her bag) and when she sees the two hot ladies boobing she's like "I'm not really a transphobe I'm just horny for trans girls! I can't fight it anymore now that I've seen such a beautiful perfect vagina on a totally real woman who happens to be trans!" Then she pulls out her boobs
It hadn't even occurred to me that one reason trans-identifying males wanted to see a gynecologist was that many gynecologists are women, and that they (the TIMs) may be 1) sexually aroused by a female doctor examining them; and 2) the validation (if the female doctor does not accurately sex the TIM patient before the pelvic exam) provided must be through the roof; and 3) it's possible to sexually harass a medical practitioner who's examining your pelvic parts.
I once knew a female priest who gave confessions, and she told the story of a male who confessed to her in a way that was obviously about sexually harassing her...listing his sexual sins in a licentious way. He then went on to stalk her...make her as uncomfortable as possible when others weren't looking outside of confession.
I wouldn't be surpised if the same dynamic might be playing out with TIMs seeking gynecological exams from female doctors
Not a single female doctor or nurse would ever behave that way. Watches too much porn.
On a related note, remember how Marci Bowers told Jazz Jennings that with his neovagina, he "could be a pornstar!"?
To be fair - not that I want to be fair to Marci - he wasn't saying Jazz's neovagina was so perfect he could be a porn star, he was saying that so many people had looked at and taken pictures of Jazz's neovagina that he has probably had as much exposure as a pornstar.
I'm not sure that's better, especially coming from a medical professional treating a teenager π¬
Yeah, noooo. They're both totally inappropriate and the whole situation is horrifying. When I said "to be fair" I meant to accurately portray, not defend. There's no defending these monsters.
I agree, neither context would make this an acceptable thing to say to Jazz, but accuracy is important. Especially when the other side is so dishonest.
Jesus christ I never saw that π€’
Exulansic shows it in a clip from the show in one of her videos. I can't believe 1) he said that 2) on camera and 3) the editing team put it in the final cut. Maybe someone in the production crew has peaked.
Okay, I looked it up on twitter... the beginning of the story makes it even more ridiculous...
So, I had trans-femme bottom surgery a few weeks ago. (Yay!) Iβm recovering at a friendβs house, and the hospital is sending visiting nurses to check up on me each week, take my vitals, etc.
Yes, a few weeks after major cosmetic surgery, a visiting nurse marveled at the beauty of your wound. And that pinned tweet from three days ago linking to your surgery GoFundMe is just such a coincidence. Sure, Jan.
Iβll take TIMs fantasizing about being sexually harassed for 200, Alexβ¦
It's so gross that they see assault and harassment as a turn on. Ughhhhhh.
Any woman who's had a gynecological exam would know this is pure fantasy. Do they tell each other this shit to get off? Because how could any woman read that and not see its a fetish?
Dudes voice definitely does not pass per his Instagram account. Heβs not a βDβ cup, and he has VERY male βeast west breastsβ.
Men: describes a fake, pornographic daydream
Also men: 'It was so totally professional though'.
Any woman who has had a pelvic exam know how painful and miserable they are. And sometimes they are nonconsensual if youβre put under anesthesia. This has happened to me.
I canβt even tell you how disgusted I am. Just awful.
How do I know it's fake? Because since when do you have to "pull off the blanket" and "pull down your pants" to have a gyn exam????
That's not a thing. You remove your clothing before the doctor ever even steps into the room. And you don't remove the blanket.
He was visited at home by a nurse (if any such visit happened at all).
This was annoying me so bad. Why does he think we get to cuddle under a blanket, fully clothed, while we wait to undress in front of the doctor? Does he even know those "blankets" are made of FUCKING PAPER?!
He was visited at home by a nurse. The whole tweet thread is on his Twitter account. (Maybe a nurse did visit him at home, but the rest of the story is obviously fake).
Exactly! Your doctor doesn't stand there and watch you undress.
We're making legislation to cater to the whims of a bunch of fucking perverts. Their gyno sex fantasy is gonna have unpleasant implications for real doctors and no one's doing anything about it.
JFC -ON-A-CRACKER, those flesh pockets look nothing like Real Vaginas, nor do they react like them either. They aren't self cleaning either.
<They aren't self cleaning either.
Every time I see or hear this, it makes me feel gaggy. They've basically got a man-made belly button in their crotch, only it's bigger and deeper than any belly button known to mankind.
tl;dr: CAN YOU IMAGINE THE STENCH????
And this nonsense is signal boosted to young inexperienced Lesbians: Genital Preferences are not Transphobic. But what if a TW had Bottom surgery and had a vagina. There is no difference between a TW vagina and a woman's vagina.
I feel horrible for any lesbian who has her first experience with a TIM. Men smell bad all around, while I prefer the natural scent of a woman.
This is such a terrible period for young Lesbians. Every dating app is full of men.
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So many shades of that never happened. The most my obgyn has said to me during a pelvic exam is everything looks healthy. Oh and she warned me about a mole once.
Right? All I got was that my vaginal walls look healthy and I gave a damn cute vajayjay so if anyone's getting stares of awe it's ME, hun! Snaps
First of all: "Yours looks better than mine!" -- either not true, or a polite lie to try to be nice.
Second of all: holy crap, this individual has totally gone off the deep end. I first saw them online a little while ago - he runs a Twitter account called "Female Composer Safety League" which purports to be about raising awareness of sexism faced by women in music, but (you guessed it) it basically this man's self-affirming playground. He's made the account retweet his own account a number of times, but it's mostly gone quiet as I guess the initial excitement wore off for him - it struck me as entirely performative from the get-go (ironically or perhaps fittingly, for an account about composers...). Some of the stuff he says on his private account was already nauseating before this...
No man who had SRS would be going to a random gyno weeks after surgery to make sure it is healing correctly. And no neovagina looks like anything other than a wound for months after surgery if everything goes perfectly.
My obgyn looks at my breasts to do a breast exam. So the big "tell" for me on this story aside from everything else about undressing, was that this doctor looked at the breasts but touched nothing. Which actually now that this person has breast tissue, and hormones that cancer likes to eat, they probably actually need to do breast exams.
Besides, the person who posted didn't even describe the fun little tile with fish on it, on the ceiling, that they've got for you to stare at, while you undergo the...you know... touching that no one really wants to experience but we grin and bear because the doctor understands that this is just part of life for us to not get cervical cancer and die...
You guys are getting cervical exams? What's that? Me and my obgyn just make out and finger fuck each other
A while back there used to be a meme circulating of a picture of folded up clothes on a chair that looked to be in a doctor's office, and there were panties peeking through. Every comment on the picture was an "LOL" or "I thought it was just me!", and it was all from women and girls. There was no caption, although some versions that circulated had "IYKYK". The pic was enough for women to all get it.
We never pull our pants down in front of anyone. They leave the room for us to undress and also always knock before walking back in. Besides the ludicrousness of the rest of the story, no professional would exclaim or compare vaginas with their patients. Also, depending on the type of doctor you're going to see, everyone has an idea of what they're walking into regarding the patient.
I know I'm being Captain Obvious, but the fact that there are WOMEN co-signing this nonsense is what drives me bonkers.
Yeah, that happened. As if a gynaecologist is going to be looking at your surgical wound, let alone praising it, much less your moobs.
I have doubts this man has even had the surgery.
I doubt it too. I doubt this dude has even seen a vagina before, in fact. "yours looks better than mine" Dr. Lesbian says as soon as he takes his pants off. Like...really, I think I'd need to get a more comprehensive look before I could judge if a woman's snooch was "Better" than mine. Wouldn't be something I could just eyeball from a few feet away. I mean, as someone who's attracted to women, as I'm thinking about it, I can see the appeal of this particular fantasy. Idk about the gyno's office though. But I'll admit I forgot where I was going with this. Oh yea as I was saying, are female gyno's this "sisterly"? I've only had male ones. Is it really like "Oh girlfriend you have got to try this new wax!"
The actual story starts with a nurse visiting him at home. This may be the only part of the story that has a factual basis. (Maybe.)
No actually that tells me this definitely didn't happen. No TiM would miss the opportunity to pester affirmation out of pregnant women and teenaged girls trying to get birth control in a real obgyn waiting room.
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Given that his ex-wife was the breadwinner, I hope that the existence of the GFM means she doesnβt have to pay him spousal support. But then again, grifters gonna grift.
Fantasy drivel. Anyone who had actually had their vagina poked about by a medical professional knows this. There's never a comment about it's 'beauty'. They certainly don't ask to cop a look at your tits as well. Jesus. The delusion.
I've never had to pull my pants down in front of any doctor. They always leave the room first and try to leave some amount of dignity.
This was definitely a tell that it's fiction. The only time I ever had to undo my pants with the doctor in the room was to check my umbilical hernia. You don't undress right in front of them for a pelvic exam π
Yes, they have a screen in place and neither they nor the nurse who is there watch you pull your pants down.
Eww why does even our routine medical care have to be fetishised by these guys? Also big plot hole in his story β¦ so she didnβt realise he was trans, and yet didnβt say anything about all the stitches on his operation site?
I thought that as well! Or the lack of a cervix!
Yea I didn't get a breast exam and I actually have tits
We're not bloody cars! "While you're in having your vagina serviced luv, shall we have a check of the ol' boobs as well?". Such man thinking on every level.