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"Kissing ovaries"
After my second trip to the ER for severe pain, I was diagnosed with endometriosis. They'd suspected it before, but after a sickeningly painful ultrasound, I guess they're pretty certain. I know it's often said that the only official way to diagnose endo is by doing a laparoscopy, but between my ovaries being stuck together, enlarged, with cysts that are nearly the same size as my enlarged (and weirdly shaped) ovaries, monthly bloodbaths, and excruciating pain...
It fits pretty well, and I'm fucking terrified. Im supposed to schedule an MRI so they can get another look (they already saw my ovaries and the cysts via CT and vaginal ultrasound), then circling back to the specialist that I saw this morning, then to most likely schedule surgery.
I don't know what I'm asking or if I'm asking something but I am really scared, and I don't have anyone in my personal life that I trust to talk to about this, and I don't know what to do with how scared and alone I feel right now.
I’m so sorry :( this sounds completely awful and painful. I don’t really have much advice but my friend had surgery relating to her endo and since then she’s felt much better - periods are relatively less painful and less debilitating/heavy - hopefully it will be the same for you.
The only advice I can offer is to take each day at a time and be kind to yourself 💚