Every time I look for fucking ships, I’m greeted with a “transfem nonbinary lesbian” or something that appropriates the shit out of actual women. I might seem like a snowflake, but I also have reasoning behind this.

The female characters there are already not given enough attention. It doesn’t matter how well written the character is or the significance to the game’s lore.. they don’t give a fuck.

There was this one update about a certain character (female): it was literally designed and written carefully for her by the devs and the whole team, but some male beast thingy or whatever you call it got the spotlight (by the fanbase) despite being the most annoying thing known to exist.

Female villain characters already get enough backlash in the fandom that I’m in, but most of the “bad” male characters get overly glorified and infantilised just for being a male. This is not just something I’m irrationally fearful about, I’ve heard from other people in the same fanbase that think the same thing. It’s fucking ridiculous how this fandom has went into shit.

No rachel, you cannot “fix” a ship by “making it yuri” and insisting that anyone that disagrees genuinely deserves death. I have to be the one to stay quiet about shit like this in the fandom because thousands of people are going to laugh at me and make memes if I say anything again. I’ve experienced something like this before and I never want to experience it again. I have so many alt accs I hide my identity under because of my paranoia from being harrassed and tracked down. (And making the fans hate the characters because of me)

Hence, this is why I get so mad when I see a male character with the fan label slapped “butch lesbian” on him. There’s so many other perfect female characters that could’ve fit the label, but the shittiest taste always wins. There’s like 50% more female characters than male characters in the whole ass franchise, and on ao3 there’s like more than 3-5x more fanfics of ships including male characters than just female characters. I don’t even think that’s an accurate estimation, but just compare 200 fanfics to 5,000.. or even more i dont remember

A male character that is obviously obsessed over by almost every fan does not deserve the label “woman” or some type of trans alphabet soup label. It just feels like a slap to the face, especially when the fandom majority is women (TIFs included)

I can abandon the activities to the game and the fandom, but I cannot lose my attachment to its specific female characters, I’ve been using this as a coping mechanism for the past 3 years. It’s one of the things that make me the most happy when I’m going through a depressive or a tough time. I barely talk to people outside of my immediate family for most of my life. I hate that I have to suffer and cry all day in my room when I’m insecure and hopeless; even the politically correct kids of my generation who claim to be accepting do not want me at all.

I’m trying to find my passions. It’s so ridiculous when you’re searching for content of your favourite character(s) and stumble across some stupid ass internet drama about how someone said this about TrAnS Ppl or just see some shitty headcanons.

I refuse to believe that anyone in my fandom that’s a TRA or a TIP is actually a feminist or a true advocate for women like they claim to be. They’ve consumed so much content that they can’t even form an actual opinion. I hate the terms “male wife” “boypussy” “get some bitches” etc. I’m scared that I will be one of them some day.

You wouldn’t even believe me if I said the fandom was literally about cookies. 🤦‍♀️ you can’t fucking debate about a cookie’s gender when the devs even confirmed that they don’t have any actual genders or races. (because they aren’t human) There’s no need to call a confused 10 year old racist or transphobic because they were indifferent about the fandom’s hostile behaviors. Some of you users will crack a laugh after this paragraph, and don’t worry, I will too.

(Do not look up the fandom’s rarepairs on tumblr, you will cringe.)

apologies if I used terms that you’re unfamiliar with, i know some ovarit users are much older than the average tumblr user. Also I needed time to cool off after I saw a post. typing this rant definitely released a lot of fury I built inside of myself. Good thanksgiving to all of you!